Now every day you spend is very important and important to
your end and fate. So you'll cherish all you have now and
every minute you spend now and try all the time to make yourself
gain most so that you don't waste your life in vain. Perhaps
you all feel puzzled that why I say so. Frankly I'm not satisfied
with your actions for the hope I want from you is not what
you're like now. So I may say each of you is in the edge of
the death but your voice for help before and the heartfelt
wishes of pursuing the truth and yearning for the light before
have already got to end. This shows your answer to me at last
and also it's not what I've ever hoped. I don't want to speak
against the fact for you make me so disappointed. Perhaps
you don't want to let it go at that or confront with the fact
but I'll still ask you seriously such a question: what is
full of your hearts on earth these years? Who on earth are
you loyal to? Don't say my question is sudden or ask me why
I ask you such a question. You should know because I know
you well and care about you too much and my heart is soaked
in your deeds, so I blame you without end all the time and
endure suffering but what you repay me is the ignorance and
helplessness that I can't bear. You fool me so and don't you
know at all? If you think so, that proves the fact that you
are not really good to me. So I say you're deceiving yourself.
You are too clever to know what you're doing, so what will
you take to answer me?
The problem I care for is whom you're loyal
to. I also hope you each clear your thoughts and ask yourself
who on earth you're loyal to and who on earth you live for.
Perhaps you never think over such a question, then let me
help you open this question's answer!
People who have memories will admit such a fact:
people live for themselves and are loyal to themselves. I
think your answer is not completely right for you each live
in your own life and struggle in your own sorrow so what you're
loyal to are people you love and the things you like. You're
not completely loyal to yourself because the people and things
around you influence you so you are not really loyal to yourself.
The reason why I say so doesn't prove that I agree you can
be loyal to yourself but reveal your loyal hearts which are
loyal to everything, for I never get anyone's "loyalty"
so many years. You follow me so many years but you've never
had a little "loyalty" and turn around your loved
people and things even whenever or wherever you are, you put
them in your hearts tightly and never leave them. You hanker
after anything you love, and are fond of the things you love
as you follow me even at the same time when you listen to
my words. So I say you all use the loyalty I require you to
be loyal to your lover and value your lover. Although you
devote yourself to me one or two, but this can't represent
your whole or represent that whom you are really loyal to
is me. You put yourselves into the business you love. Some
are faithful to their children. Some are loyal to their husbands.
Some are loyal to their wives, some to money, some to the
work, some to their boss, some to the position and some to
the women. You never feel tired to the things you are loyal
to, or vexed but are getting more eager and eager to have
more and better things that you're loyal to and never give
up. You always put me and my words the last after all your
loved things and have to put them in the last even some people
put the thing that you don't still find yet and you'll be
loyal to fill the last place. There's nothing of me in their
hearts. Maybe you'll think that I'm so strict with you and
I'm treating you unjustly but do you ever think it over when
you play with your family together, do you think that you
are never loyal to me even one time? At that time don't you
feel sorrowful from this? When you joyfully gain the salary
that you work hard to get, don't you feel depressed that you
never equip with enough truth? When do you mourn and cry with
tears because you don't get my praise? You rack your brains
for your children and you still feel unsatisfied to do so
and still think that you need to care for them and never devote
all your strength but you treat me carelessly the whole time,
only in your memory, not existing in your heart. You never
know my faithful heart to you or intend to understand but
only think it a little and you think it's ok. Such a "loyalty"
is not what I long for but what I hate for long time. But
whatever I say, you still admit one or two and can't accept
them all for you are so self-confident. You always accept
my words with choice. If you're still like this now, I'm sure
I have ways to treat you and I can make you admit what I say
is true and is not out of the facts.
Now put some money before each of you and let
you choose freely and don't commit your sins, then most of
you will choose money and give up the truth. Better ones will
give up money and choose the truth reluctantly. Those between
the two kinds of people will grasp money with one hand and
the truth with the other hand. So isn't your real appearance
obvious? You will choose like this between anything you're
loyal to and the truth and your attitude will be like this.
Don't you? Don't many of you have hesitated between the true
and false? The family and God, children and God, harmony and
break-off, rich and poor, high position and common position,
being supported and being refused and etc. In all of these
struggles between proper and false, black and white, what
do you choose? I don't think you couldn't know this. Between
the harmony family and break-off family you choose the former
without hesitation. Between money and duty you choose the
former again even you don't have such a faith that you come
back. Between luxury and poor you choose the former. Between
children, wife, husband and I you choose the former. Between
the conception and the truth you still choose the former.
To confront with kinds of your evil deeds, it simply makes
me lose the faith on you and simply surprises me that your
hearts can't be softened! What my efforts for many years exchange
is that you give up me and you have no hope. But my hope to
you is rising as the days pass by for my day has already shown
to everybody. But now you still pursue for dark and evil things
and don't want to loose your hands. So how will your ending
be? Did you think it over? If you're permitted to choose again,
what attitude will you have? Is it still the former? Will
what you answer me still be the sadness of disappointment
and sorrow? Will your hearts still only have a little warmth?
Don't you still know how to do can comfort me? At present,
what are you choosing? Is it to obey or hate my words? My
day has already shown before you and what you confront with
is the new life and new start. But I'll bell you, the start
this time is not the beginning of new work before but the
end of old work that is the last scene. I think you'll know
how unusual this start is! But one day, not very long, you'll
know this start's real meaning. Then let's pass this start
and welcome next ending! But what I still worry about is that
you always choose the former between injustice and justice.
But it's your past. I also hope I can forget all your past
one by one, but it's difficult to do so. But I have a good
way that is, let the future take place the past and let your
past disappear and take the real appearance back today. So
I have to beg you that you choose again and see who on earth
you're loyal to?
